Lately I have been having a really hard time coping with my depression. I cry a lot and I spend a lot of time being angry at people for no reason. I’ve spent a lot of time wondering about all of the decisions I’ve made recently and wondering if they were right or can be made right. 

What I do know right now is that I give myself the chance to actually feel thing when I am with Warren and I can tell him when I’m angry and when I’m hurt and when I just want to revert back to my old ways. He doesn’t always understand, and no one ever will, but he is better than most.

I know that Melanie can always make me feel loved when I am hard to love and she will listen.

I know that J gets it.

I know that Carrie loves me even though I don’t believe it half the time.

I know that I’m depressed and while its not always an excuse, it’s good to know whats going on with me.

I know that i will be okay and get through it because by some miracle, I’ve conquered this beast before.